Too much time has passed since she left everything. She lost trust in people and then she lost confidence in herself. Or it went in reverse order.
Magical words came one after another. Exactly the ones she repeated for years only in her head, hiding them selfishly from everyone and only occasionally let them glide along the intertwined path of the infinity sign clumsy drawn on a piece of paper. They came out of nowhere and begun to tore down walls, carefully built over the years.
After the countless attempts to open the door, she finally found herself on the other side. Fear and disbelief, but also a desire to stay there forever.
I have no clue what the New Moon in Aries brought during the weekend, but as much as my memory serves me (and it is quite selective), I’m sure that the last time I noticed, it was in Sagittarius and did me no good at all.
So, I finally decided to move a bit away from the walls and to look at the sky from the different spot. Believe me or not, everything seems pretty different despite the predictions about the world that make my blood turning to ice. From now on, I refuse to listen self-called misters and misses WeKnowItAll!
My mirror became so cruel, without mercy at all, but I’m an inner warrior and I’ll fight with all my strength. I became wiser and got to know one secret – everything happens in this blink of the eye!
approaching of May against the weather forecast only silly hearts
Who would have ever said that the day of awakening would come, a day in which 20 years of illusion would suddenly spill over into the just one single thought: “It was all just a rehearsal”. A trial version, with extended expiration date. But what is it compared to time in which infinity is a unit of measure? The shades make a difference, but sometimes they are so hard to spot.
There is so much to talk about, that even ten books wouldn’t be enough to describe all the adventures of a deceived mind. Adventures that never really existed outside of the twisted world that a mind created itself unconsciously assuming the role of God. Oh, how exciting!
Now, who to blame? Maybe all those strategy video games played during the youth? Or all those weird stories from the favorite movies? Or… Who cares?!Forgive yourself and be thankful for the lessons! At the end, soon or a later everything gets into the place. And you… You would never come this far without them.
No one knows when we turned off the track, nor why all navigation tools refuse to cooperate. Maybe technology has taken off and directed all its superpowers imperceptibly in the opposite direction, deliberately, testing everyone who once swore allegiance to it.
I recognize kindred souls wandering, aimlessly and for too long, rising and falling, hitting they own walls. The old soothing voices are suddenly noisy, like a hammer hitting a nail mercilessly.
They say that the beginning and the end overlap just when my favorite virtual astrologer stopped giving predictions for free. What good is to know the current phase of the Moon, if I don’t know what it has to do with me?
indecisive spring trying to put soul in verse unsuccessfully
5 mins to 5 and I’m going to sleep exactly 5 hours. What a time to take a look at the clock!
Jupiter conjunct Saturn in Aquarius! Big changes are on the way, they say, a total transformation of the old and beginning of something brand new. I have no clue if this is true, but whenever I see a word Aquarius, I knew that I’m on my own terrain. How narcissistic statement this was!
Two warriors in my Ascendant – Mars in Aries has put the whole World into the mess, except me. Somehow, I was thrown to my own path to self.
I don’t know why am I telling you this, especially considering the fact that I even don’t know anything about astrology. I just pick some information here and there and I find them fun.
end of decade my thoughts still floating above closed borders
If all the words took shape, I believe that only a few would be able to read. Inside, everything is reminiscent of the old-fashioned magazines from abroad that we often bought because of the pictures, not understanding a single word. We are adults and intelligent enough to know that imagination is a virtue of children, but a man without imagination is just a turtle tucked into his armor. Too boring and it takes too long. Everything was supposed to be full of the sketches from life and clips of the dreams. Somewhere along the road, I missed the main part.
At the end of a day, same old sun promises a new awakening.
I haven’t left the house for a few days, but I haven’t missed a thing in my little magic box – the blue sky, the sun and the other side of the moon even. I walked the different shores, traveled into the space, met various people and spent some time in their homes, picked up a piece of fame here and there as well. Maybe even a little hatred, somewhere, who knows. I successfully ruled my world, turned it on and off with just one click. How great power is entrusted to me!
The dark night is over, but walls still keep the coldness from the outside.